The Retreat

I had so much fun at the Retreat! I wish every woman was there! It was such a blessing to be there! Not just to be with my Sisters but I actually felt like Christ was actually with us at times. We were blessed with songs by Charles Tantone on Saturday night, who sang wonderfully. He is such a great singer. I know I'm going on and on about him but I sort of feel like I know him. I know his parents from church. We were also blessed with some excellent musical numbers by Becky Saylor and a few other ladies there. It was wonderful! Then, there was the water aerobics! AH! The first day, I had goosebumps from the "heated pool" but the second day it was like stepping into your bathtub. There wasn't many who chose to do the water aerobics either so I wasn't embarrassed or shy or anything. One lady said I "radiated happiness". I don't know about that but I sure had fun. I really enjoyed myself. Then, at night we had the talk with Debbie and it was fabulous. The last night she had me in tears. I don't think there was a dry eye in the room. She mainly just talked about her life and why she chose to come to talk to us. It was really moving. I wish you all were there because I can't do her talk justice and am not even going to try. She had a friend just like Sabrina and lost her also. It was heart-breaking.
I was able to write three poems while at the retreat. Mainly because I missed my Spike dog and because I felt the Sisterhood of all that was around us. They even had a few of my poems in the folder in the gift bag that every woman received. They were about friends and friendship. I was surprised, I wasn't expecting something like that. I was also pleased. I think they only have one women's retreat a year. I think I will start saving up for the next one as soon as I can. I sure enjoyed myself at this one. As you probably could tell.
I went to my psych eval result consultation. I was right when I thought that she was going to say that I wasn't ready for gastric bypass surgery yet. She listed her reasons and what she wanted me to work on and she said I can retake it any time. Then she asked if I wanted her to release it to my Dr. in Columbia and since I want to be honest with him all the time, I said yes. I know that might be a mistake but I can't keep a lie straight. If he dismisses me from the program, I'll just go to Springfield. They have a gastric bypass unit and it's only an hour away. Hopefully, they will see that I will work with them at losing my weight and will work on my issues until I can have my gastric bypass. She wants my depression down, my other psych stuff down, my support system stronger, and for me to ask for and get help more.
Well, I guess that's it. Talk to you later.
May God Bless You. Have a blessed day and an even more blessed night.
Melissa